One week into Wildflower May and I keep wondering if I should change the topics I’m writing about, either way, I see these as the foundation for who I am and my healing journey. Today’s post discusses how my Reiki attunements changed my life through spiritual healing.
What is Reiki?
Reiki is a form of energy healing with Japanese roots. It is not connected to any religion, and uses Rei meaning life force and Ki, meaning energy to bring healing to the physical and spiritual body.
Reiki is passed down through Masters who follow the Usui Method of Healing seen as the origins of Reiki healing.
How Reiki Healing Attunement Changed My Life
In April of 2019, my mom and I went to a small town outside of Toronto, driving through side roads, taking in the budding spring weather to a centre for Metaphysical learning. Neither of us had an idea of what to expect, other than knowing we’d spend the whole day there.
After this first attunement, we went again to the same place in June, and really enjoyed the drive there, through the trees and the fresh clean air.
In May I went to a meditation event held by the ladies community, and met another Reiki Master. I found myself with my eyes open during this group mediation where she was sitting higher than the group, as the leader, and meditating so powerfully, a large beam of light was shining from the top of her head through the ceiling. At this time I was new to the healing journey, mediation, and spirituality, but I knew that there was something beautiful in her energy that I wanted to learn from her for the final level of Reiki.
And so, in September, just before my 26th birthday, my mom and I went to become Reiki Masters and learn from this beautiful, connected, Reiki Master.
A lot of things began to change in my life as soon as I was attuned to the final master level of Reiki, small shifts started after the first two, and then accelerated quickly with the final attunement.
Here are 10 ways Reiki healing changed my life.
1. Connecting to my Mom in a new way
My mom and I have always had a strong connection, until some instances of life created a separation and the bond never healed properly. Having my mom with me while being attuned to Reiki healing created the foundation for a healed connection. I have to remind myself that energy healing is not going to heal you, but it is going to put energy into the part of you that requires healing from you, from your conscious mind.
As a writer, I found myself sitting with a lot of my feelings from the past, I found that a lot of the emotions I pushed down from my childhood experiences came back up to the surface, just as a pimple comes to burst, all of the feelings I avoided for years came up and wanted to be released.
2. Connection to myself through writing
Before reiki, I had the domain for my blog, had written a couple of things, but had no vision at all as to what the purpose of my blog was. Opening myself up to healing allowed a new connection within myself. A connection to self love, universal consciousness and the multidimensionality of my identity.
I believe this connection to my blog has helped me heal from the patterns of Borderline personality, and as many would argue there is no cure, I would argue a cure is not needed, healing is.
3. Expanding Consciousness
When you are attuned to reiki, the Master teacher is opening a portal on your crown chakra that is normally the size of a quarter. They expand this quarter into a toonie size, or about the size of the palm of your hand.
Once this happens to the Master level, your crown chakra, and consciousness have tripled in size, and so you begin to expand your own ideas, beliefs, and knowledge of the universe. For me, I felt this come as a shift when writing because I’ve always had philosophical ideas, but never wrote about them for a purpose other than a final paper, or something that someone else demanded from me.
Expanding consciousness took the form of expanding my own philosophy and really sitting with myself and asking what it means to be philosophy.
4. Allowing New Experiences
My favourite part of my reiki healing journey is the new experiences this energy allowed me to open up to. In June I volunteered at Convocation for new OISE graduates.
I also was invited to be part of the executive team, and assist in the visioning meeting for the alumni association. From this experience of being part of a vision, I started to create a vision for myself and to actuate my future self.
I started working with friends in a friendtorship manner regarding my blog, as I still felt this need to ask others for help with what I was doing.
In July, I was telling someone I wanted to play soccer, and didn’t really think about whether it would be possible, I hadn’t played in years, and didn’t have many friends in Toronto who would be able to form a team.
The Universe heard my request and an old friend from University who lives in Toronto reached out asking if I could sub for his team!
Not only did the Universe hear my request, but also pushed me far out of my comfort zone, as playing co-ed was not something I’d ever done! It was new to me to share the field with boys, and it turned out to be just as much fun! I even found myself screaming funny words to throw the guys off their game when they charged at me.
Allowing reiki energy into myself supercharged my connection to the Universe and allowed me to heal faster, and open my heart to new experiences.
5. Taking New Risks
Along with saying yes to the new experiences above, taking new risks regarding my own identity, healing, and personal security came as the year went on. In December I decided to move out of my childhood home in Toronto, to a shared apartment with a roommate.
I made this choice, somewhat impulsively, as my pattern of impulsive decisions hadn’t quite healed, but without regrets.
It gave me the space to heal without the environment where I grew up that fed a lot of my personal traumas.
This statement is true for me. I also faced a lot of difficulties when I was alone, away from home, and so my healing process had to take place in an environment where I could be more independent, free, and build healthy self reliance.
Before making this decision, I decided to take part in a retreat and group based on sexual trauma healing and business development. These two powerful women, one of whom I met at the same event where I met my Reiki Master Teacher, were hosting a 6 week coaching group and a final retreat.
Normally I would have said no, I can’t afford it, or find some limiting belief to put up as a stop sign for the universe, but this time, I said yes. I said yes because I was taking new risks for me! I was healing, for me!
Before the coaching started, my coach asked, What would you be willing to give up in order to achieve your dreams? I never thought about actually having to give up my family and my dog, but that is what I wrote, and somehow I’ve found myself with comfort in the fact that I still have both those things, despite my willingness to give them up.
My attachment to my dog was built in unhealthy attachment styles of using an animal as an anxiety blanket, where having him gave me an excuse not to show up fully and to self-isolate, pre-covid-19.
On the weekend of the retreat, at the end of January, I rented a car to drive to Niagara Falls area, and instead of getting the Ford Escape I had booked, I got a free upgrade and drove a white Mercedes Benz !!
I immediately felt the rush of how capable and confident I can be on my own. There’s nothing I cannot accomplish, and these risks are proving it to myself.
I was also proud to be able to call up my Arbonne mentor and ask for his help when the fancy rental car had a symbol light up that I had never seen on a ford or Mini Cooper before. It’s powerful to think that I have people around me who earned a bonus for their hard work for a Mercedes. I find that really inspiring!
6. Transforming Relationships with Self Love
Another risk I took for my own healing is with the Year of Miracles program. When I signed up, I went right to the highest level of the program for two reasons.
- I want to write a book and work with energy in my bracelet business
- I desired the coaching for both business and personal healing
These two desires brought me to the Inner circle program, which has influenced me the most in the area of self-love.
Working with my beautiful coaches in this program, I found this part of me who never felt safe, in her body, or her home, or anywhere. It explains why I never had a solid relationship with a partner, and how borderline personality became a part of my identity.
In order to heal this part of me, I had to work really hard on self love. It always seemed like this simple concept, love yourself, but I could never fully apply it!
With my miracles coaches I have learned about boundaries, and the value of having healthy boundaries with myself.
7. Creating a New Identity
At the end of May last year, I went to the OISE alumni reunion. I love the OISE community as teachers are very important in society, and one particular alumnus stood out to me, as she had just launched a children’s book called Who do you want to become?
This question resonated with me, and continues to pop up in my mind as I plan and vision my future.
I look back at what I’ve written and wonder if I ever truly knew who I was, or if it was all in my mind, in the distress of certain actions I took without thinking and considering the future. The truth is, I never saw a future for myself. I never wanted anything more than to do well in school and learn about things that interested me. I wanted to have good friendships, but that was not my strong suit.
Writing this now, I know what I want, and who I am becoming. I also know that reiki healed my life in such a way that it cleared out the life cataracts that I had. Ironically, my vision was never 20/20 and I’m working in my miracles program, on healing my vision.
I want to ask you, do you know who you want to become? 5 years from now? 5 months from now? How will you get yourself there?
8. Becoming my Future Self
In November, I wrote best yourself, and the wisdom in that post still rings true. It is more powerful to better yourself than to focus on how others need to change.
The only power we have, truly, is to control, change, and be ourselves. Seeing a vision of our future self, a self with no regrets, no anger, no hatred, nothing negative, who is filled with joy, wonder, and faith, is the most powerful tool because it is a vision only you can have for yourself, of yourself.
I challenge you, to become your future self. Take the steps everyday, build the habits, every moment, to become this person. Some habits I’ve started include; mediation, gratitude journalling, changing my language before texting someone, seeing every trigger as a lesson, and asking myself how I can respond with love, compassion, and empathy before reacting in a defensive way.
What are some habits you can build right now that will get you closer to your future self?
9. Standing on Solid Ground
My reiki attunement also brought the blessing of my soul tribe toward me, and as a result I have more strong friendships in my life than I have ever had.
One of my good friends, has a coaching business called Finding Solid Ground, and she is starting her tribe for those who are searching for healing. When I first started interacting with her, it was only on Instagram, we had never met in real life, but our paths were so similar, she even finished her masters the same year as me, in the building beside mine! How freaky!
It’s amazing what can happen when you find solid ground, and build solid roots in yourself before looking outward for authentic friendships.
10. Finding my Inner Power and Truth
Reiki healing led me here, to this post, to this moment, of speaking my truth. It healed my disconnections, from myself and my mom, and allowed me to regain control of my life, truth, and power.
It hasn’t been easy, to be on this journey alone, but in truth, I was never alone. Why? Because as Gabby Bernstein says, the Universe has your back!
Remember…
Reiki healing is energy of the universe, energy that is already part of you. Consider a distance reiki session similar to a blessing of love energy for you while you’re sleeping, coming from someone who has a bigger portal to this energy.
This post outlines my journey through Reiki attunement, and healing, but every journey is different. My mom’s journey is different, than mine, and she was with me during these sessions.
If you are not open to the idea of healing, then healing will be more difficult.
I hope with all my heart, you enjoyed reading this post! Leave a comment and let me know which way reiki healed my life spoke to you. I love to hear feedback and enjoy critical thinking from my posts, as they are all based within love and wisdom of philosophy.
With love and light,
~~ stay true, stay weird ~~
~~ Kristi